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 I was in complete and utter shock mixed with waves of emotion and denial. I sat there, Eric in front of me in a hypnotic state staring at the door. I knew I wouldn’t leave the bathroom the same person I was when I walked in. Yes, I was shocked, not at the thought of having a baby, but at the idea that someone, one day would call me “mommie, mama, mom”..whatever. Shocked that change was going to come whether I wanted it or not and quickly. Scared about how I would physically feel and the changes that would occur with my body.
Eric couldn’t believe my shock and awe reaction and It all seems silly now ten and a half years later. We were blessed with a happy, healthy, and beautifully funny child- Zhayer. She is on the Honor Roll, sings in The Phoenix Girls Choir and is auditioning in Los Angeles from time to time. Over the years, she has taught me many lessons: 1. Eric isn’t just MINE, he is hers also, her daddy, protector, playmate, chauffeur and friend. She reminds me daily that I am not perfect and shouldn’t expect her to be either. She knows it is ok to have a hair or two flying in the wind and that it’s okay to laugh at herself, loud and often. Thank God for Zhayer for she is a constant reminder of what was and what will be. The light at the end of a long day and the joy I am sure to have tomorrow. She has enriched our lives in so many ways and has made us better people. I now look at her shocked to think that I only have a measily 7 years left to have the greatest amount of influence in her life before she goes to college or thinks she can do what she wants without my input, consult, or approval. I remember how that was. Little does she know, there will never be a time in her life where I won’t provide all three. A mother’s love runs deep and is forever! Thank you Zhayer for giving me the wonderful opportunity to hear YOU call me Mommie with the deapest love and affection!
Happy Mother’s Day to all of You! Whether you have your own children or not, as women, we are all responsible for each others!
With love,
Glynis |
